HOPE-LESS

This is just stuff I want to rant about. It’s going to be a jumble, but I need to write. If you don’t want to read it, you don’t have to. It’s just here, for my own sake.

I’ll never know when enough is enough, when to stop trying. I always thought I’d never give up but what’s the point if you don’t even bother. I told myself if I put in 110% then at least I know I tried but does it even matter if it is reciprocated? Sometimes we will never be enough for someone else and sometimes it might just be better to quit than to get hurt trying. The more you give, the more it will hurt. I thought when you put in effort you get results, not disappointments.
I wish I wasn’t so hopeful all the time. They say never settle for less but maybe it isn’t less, maybe I just expect too much. You can’t teach someone how to love. And I’ve tried and you can’t say you have because you only changed because I did because the second I get upset, it goes back to the way it was. Therefore you never tried, you were only happy because I made us that way.